I Think I Found A Pediatrician-FINALLY!

As many of you know, I have spent countless hours trying to find a Pediatrician for little Faith. I have a list of 125 doctors in the area who take our insurance, but I knew nothing about any of them. I really didn't feel comfortable just taking Faith to anyone. I want to take her to someone who has been recommended to me-someone that I know something about. (By the way, thanks to all of you who recommended a doctor. Unfortunately, none of them worked out, but I still greatly appreciate the help!) Anyway, I seriously think that I called like 30 or more doctors in my attempt to find the perfect one. There was some light at the end of the tunnel when the nurse from my doctor's office told me that she recognized two of the doctors on the list. Still I knew that it was a long shot because just because a doctor's name is on the list doesn't mean that s/he is taking new Tricare patients. My nurse couldn't really tell me any specifics about the two ladies on the list, but she just told me that she had some patients who used those doctors. At that point, that was good enough for me. I had no clear direction and felt pretty overwhelmed. Her referral was better than nothing. So, I called the offices for both of these doctors. Their offices are in a hospital in downtown Ft. Worth. Apparently, they stay extremely busy there. I had a bad feeling almost immediately. I don't know why, I just didn't have any peace. Things did not get any better as I conversed with the receptionsists from these two different offices. Then when the receptionists told me that I couldn't meet with the doctor before Faith's arrival, I knew that the conversation could go no further. That was a deal breaker-most definitely! I want a doctor who will spend time with me and answer all my questions. I don't want someone who is rushed and who doesn't care about me or my child. They told me that their doctors do not have time to meet new mommies. That tells me that they are totally wrong for us. I want the doctor to remember my name and my child's name when I go in to see him/her. I think that we deserve that much especially since we will be going in so often. We pay darn good money for health care; I want darn good care. I do not think that is too much to ask for! So, I got a little frustrated and discouraged after getting off the phone. I then decided to just cry out to the Lord and ask him to lead me to a doctor. Duh, why didn't I think of that earlier? I had prayed about this situation every time before making my calls, but I was still trying to make things happen for myself. I wasn't fully trusting the Lord to lead me. I then came to the realization that I was going to have to turn over complete control to the Lord. I was going to have to move over and let Him drive. I care so much about little Faith, but my love for her cannot even compare to the love that her Heavenly Father has for her. When I made that decision in my heart to trust the Lord and completely rely on Him, I felt led to call the first doctor on the list. Duh, why didn't I call her sooner? She is the closest to us. It makes sense to start at the beginning and work down the list, right? Well, I was so caught up in trying to make things happen on my own that I wasn't listening to the Lord or thinking straight. So then with some fear and apprehension I took a leap of faith and called her up. From the moment the receptionist answered I felt comfortable. The receptionist was very helpful and sweet. She even let me talk to the nurse. The nurse was also polite and helpful. They seemed to care about me and all my concerns. They geninuely wanted to help. This may sound crazy, but I was impressed by the fact that the nurse could actually say and spell my name correctly. Ludwig is super easy but way too many people cannot spell it or even say it right. I really appreciated the fact that she was smart enough to talk and communicate with me properly. Most of all I liked the fact that this doctor really cares about new mommies. She sets aside one morning every week just to meet with expectant mothers. Scott and I are meeting with her next Wednesday, and I have a total peace about this even though I do not know her and haven't been referred to her by anyone else. Well, I take that back- I really feel like the Lord has led me to this doctor. He gives the best referrals, right? I am trusting Him because He knows the desires of my heart and cares about even the small things in my life. God has given me the best OB/GYN in the world so why wouldn't He also provide me with a great Pediatrician? Lord, forgive me for doing things in my own strength and not trusting you. Your plans truly are way better than any of my own!

Please keep our meeting in your prayers, and I will definitely let you know how everything goes.